minutes away from the job. the driving to and fro and slowly there and careful here and "do you want the loop shuttle?" argh! the job.
but that's not my main concern. my main concern is that i have not heard from d and the boys. i should call them. i left a message for d a week and a half ago and he usually hears it and returns the call. has something gone on? did he decide to up and move to las vegas with friends? is halloween going to be tremendously difficult and will it be requiring much more of me than i am aware? am i even included still? i have been away from them. i have been away in so many more ways than just the infrequent call. i am worried. i am distracted. i am repetitive. i am emotional. i am pacing in circles and shaping the world with my tracks.. my off off tracks. where is my world? where is my awake? where is my d and what goes on. i miss them beyond recognition.
i am the gesture that stands open, deep with hollows unfilled and unanswered.
~ah solitude~
3:15 p.m. - 2003-10-17
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