but i can't be proud of it.
i wish i could give myself a little credit for having talked to li'l b.
and what i wouldn't give to see that my presence there (or anywhere) tonight (or any night) made a difference.
but the truth is that all i feel right now is glad to be home, in my sleeping clothes, having puked only a little in the bathroom just moments ago.
otherwise i'm tired and feeling my age. i can say, without regret, that i had a reasonably good time tonight, out with dom and li'l b.
out in Tiajuana no less.
i'm alive, i'm not rolling around in messy violent puke and i'm home.
i feel terrible for dom.
and only a slightly bit queasy for myself.
i had more to say on the nature of man and his relative inability to delay or deny gratification.
i had a lot more to say, period
but i'm too ....concentrated on working through the aftermath of one too many beers over my limit.
but on the whole i feel no regrets--handsomely content
that i no longer want what i wanted back when.....
i will never get drunk in T.J. with dom and li'l b again. i will never get drunk in T.J. with dom and li'l b again. i will never.... oh forget it i can barely keep my eyes open enough to watch the show------?
what?
just...
i will never get drunk like that again.
i will look forward to drinking.
my head is now going to have a symphony of sighs which last nlogner anyway.
bah! i'm going to wretch!
04:13 - Wednesday, Jun. 01, 2005
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