i am here and should be walking. i am here because i should be writing and can't. or i can't because my hands are stiff from washing without following the drying with lotion although i have lotion. indeed.. i have lotion.
the thing is that i need to write the remainder of the installments that i want my group to see. my group which has been split. i don't get to retain tim and jason. instead i have three new faces. three new eyes. but let me get down to it in the next few minutes more, lest i cheat myself out of time to get to class.
so the thing is that i'm having trouble writing this thing or trapping this thing. and i remember, now, something SPM said at the beginning of the quarter when referring to our writing in light of the published work of ..of.. that man i can't remember his name but he was the one wrote heart of darkness.
so.. he said that probably one of the more powerful, meaningful things to do when it comes to it is writing on something that you have had trouble dealing with. something you need to get out of your system.
i think that something that could be useful to me is to write out in quick form (much like what i'm attempting to do here) on the subject. in this case the subject that has gotten me riled enough to embark on it but not finish is sham marriage. i don't bat an eyelash these days at the thought of it but there was a time when i did. what happened? am i condoning it now with my lack of action or passion or--?
ok so hmm. i've just got to flesh out the ideas. god i hate that kind of talk. "fleshing out" of ideas and placing some kind of value on the "flow" of a "piece"..?! i mean what the hell, right? flow? good lord.
omigod i do remember saying that, juhrr! it just struck me! i do remember saying, 'can we get anymore indie'. oh god i'm a dumbass. hey i'm sorry, yo.
anyway back to what was i saying? oh holy shit its three:fifteen. i'd better get going.
tonight tonight will i burn out. wish me luck.
15:06 - Tuesday, Jun. 01, 2004
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