what is it with supposedly platonic guy and girl relationship/friendships? i mean, yes, it's a given that they're not really real because at one point or another one person has some kind of feeling that goes beyond friendship. a feeling that enters the realm of romantic attraction or need or something. what is that? it's something inescapable or something. a bit like the tortuous death at the end of a tragical story. but why?! why must it be that the concept of "best friends [being] best lovers" be taken to the extreme? i mean, there are all of these people ((myself included)) who have at one time in her lives, and sometimes sustained for far too long of a period, "fallen" for one or four of her "friends"? why? why all the needless, agonizing insanity of unrequited "love"?
W---H---Y ? ? ?
here's my opinion on the matter. once and for all. it'll never work. in fact, it SHOULD never work. not for everybody and certainly not all the time! it wouldn't be special anymore.. nothing with a sellable formula is! it wouldn't be that rare thing that everyone so desperately wants to obtain. it would have a formula and success stats and it would ((as it apparently already does)) send out the wrong idea. that this thing is for everybody. that all these things that were once reserved for the worthy can now be had by all! by anyone who lays a claim!! and the truth here, folks, is that not everyTHING --be it relationship or body or soul or love-- is FOR everyONE!! it's one of those life truths built into the system. like: people are different, there are monsters in the world, we are not alone--ghosts and aliens inhabit all planes and spaces, ice cream melts if you let it sit in the sun, and NOT EVERY BOY-GIRL FRIENDSHIP TURNS INTO SOMETHING ROMANTIC.
frankly, i like that rule. i like it a lot. it's the safety-net we fickle, silly humans need; to keep us in check. and i absolutely hate the dynamic to change when it obviously isn't supposed to change! i hate that other things or people or situations or talk have such a dramatic affect on a friendship. it's so awful to me that a perfectly wonderful, beautiful, nearly transcendent friendship has to go and get dragged through the muck of the heart's morphine: love because it feels right.
i mean, ok sure.. love because it feels right. sounds harmless enough. sounds approachable and user-friendly and applicable. and it is..in SOME cases.. but that's just the lure. just like the "best friends make the best lovers" bit. sure it sounds good. it sounds great! but it's hardly fool-proof and it's almost ALWAYS an exclusive thing and an exception to everything else. must everything be tampered and soiled till there is naught left.
is nothing sacred anymore? i mean i know god is dead for a lot of people. i know that hope can be a curse and that faith can kill. i know that "you've got to sometimes think of number one" but COME ON!!!
this is a tedious tedious grievously horrible thing, to persist on and build on infatuations and obsessions that never see a scene played out for real!!
ok enough. my head throbs like the viscious heart of a guilty man near the gallows. i'm suddenly so so tired.
--whisky before wine is fine
--wine before whisky is risky
2:51 a.m. - 2003-07-26
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